how 2020 has me feeling

2020 17 سپتامبر
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Hello and welcome to my version of I’m 22 And This Is Deep. Jokes aside, this video means a lot to me so I hope you enjoy :3 I catch you up on what I’ve been up to this summer, how I've been feeling, and how living in NYC has been through quarantine and in this weird post-quarantine, pre-vaccine limbo.
✰ what i’m wearing ✰
corduroy overalls: & other stories (similar:,
floral dress: cleobella (
new balance sneakers (
white socks (
pink face mask (
black converse (
✰ for my fellow film nerds ✰
this video was shot on super 8 film
film stock ➭ kodak 200T and 50D
camera ➭ canon 514XL
developed at ➭ negativeland in bushwick
love & war in your 20's by jordy searcy - instrumental
musicbed ID: MB01IT0DIZHFAHZ
"can we still fall in love this summer?" artwork is by 7 souls deep (
✰ FAQ ✰
what’s your name? ashley
what’s your instagram? @best.dressed
how old are you? 22 (born in 1998)
how tall are you? 5'5"
what’s your ethnicity? half british and half burmese
what equipment do you use to film?
➭ main camera: panasonic lumix gh5s (
➭ 8-18 mm lens (
➭ 12-35mm lens (
➭ on camera mic: rode videomic pro+ (
➭ voiceover mic: blue yeti usb mic (
vlog camera: canon g7x mark ii (
➭ canon m50 (
➭ editing: final cut pro
FTC: Not sponsored. Some of the above links are affiliate links, meaning I earn a small percentage (1-3%) of sales made via those links, but it doesn’t cost you anything extra!

  • miss you, hope you are doing well in 2021 :)

    Anna GironesAnna Gironesپیش 13 ساعت
  • I love you so much

    LuLuپیش 16 ساعت
  • Ashley you're so damn good.

    Khushi SinghKhushi Singhپیش 20 ساعت
  • Honestly, this is how I feel about the pandemic haha

    Miranda RobertsonMiranda Robertsonپیش روز
  • I miss you ashley!!😔

    Ariadne KhunAriadne Khunپیش روز
  • I loved this so much, you’re amazing at what you do and you’re a beautiful person inside and out, from what you show here but you care and you try, I guess that’s all we can ever do.

    Vale PortillaVale Portillaپیش 2 روز
  • genuinely crying thank you for making this

    Meghan GrewalMeghan Grewalپیش 2 روز
  • If there's one thing this woman can do, it's tell a story

    Naomi OdeniyiNaomi Odeniyiپیش 2 روز
  • please come back!!! i really need your videos 🥺💕love u ! hope u ok 🙃

    Mariela 89Mariela 89پیش 2 روز
  • Hey Ashley, i wanted to tel you that i love your videos and love how open you are. Ireallymdon't get the hate you get i really love you stay strong

    Naomi ErnstNaomi Ernstپیش 3 روز
  • I came to watch this again because I miss her

  • me checking in on this video to make such no-one is being mean to Ashley 😌😌😌

    Tarryn BrandsTarryn Brandsپیش 5 روز
  • Whenever I lose faith in the future and start to think that I'll never get out of this small town, whenever I lose hope and feel like I'm never going to go anywhere and that I'll always be alone and miserable and wounded, I watch this video. I don't know why but it really helps. It helps to think that even when things don't go as we planned, we will always find little moments of happiness in little things. So, thank you. ❤️❤️❤️

    Chinmayee KulkarniChinmayee Kulkarniپیش 5 روز
  • this is a masterpiece! half a year later and i´m still coming back

    Naimi-Awa vonAuerNaimi-Awa vonAuerپیش 5 روز
  • This video is 🔥. Reminds me of the wonder years show.

    mega408mega408پیش 6 روز
  • You stopped posting and I started watching. I am nowhere near interested in fashion but I like you, Ashley. Most probably this message will be lost amid 15k comments, but I cannot give up the hope that you might see it and realize only for a moment how your insecurities and emotions reduce our ‘modern loneliness’. And yet you stopped. Whatever you do, don’t forget to fucking grow! We cannot make everyone happy, right? We earn some, we lose some.

    Asif Ihtemadul HaqueAsif Ihtemadul Haqueپیش 6 روز
  • It’s refreshing hearing someone be as insecure as I am. I too am 22 and feel like I should probably be an adult by now but don’t really feel like one...

    Waled KhatizWaled Khatizپیش 6 روز
  • still bawling over the beauty of this

    morgan Amorgan Aپیش 7 روز
  • This was just WOW if this is how talented film majors are.... I'm gonna date one

    TaeKissTaeKissپیش 7 روز
  • i keep coming back to this video for no reason

    emily tranemily tranپیش 8 روز
  • Hi Ashley, I just wanted to say that when this video first came out, I had read all of the comments that were essentially comparing your struggles during this pandemic to people physically suffering from the virus. While I never personally left a harsh comment nor thought that you were romanticizing anything, I feel as though I should’ve challenged those critiques just a bit and advocated for us as your audience to be a little more empathetic (or maybe express concerns in a more gentle way??). It didn’t occur to me that your internal issues are just as valid and real as any other person’s pain, and I can only imagine it must be overwhelming to see some of these comments. You’re just a human being (a good one too) and I hope you’re alright. Personally, my mental health has suffered tremendously throughout this past year, and I wish I had understood that you were trying to share your similar struggles through this video (and I want to be careful not to use armchair psychiatry, like one mental health professional pointed out in the comments). I guess what I’m trying to say is I love you and your videos so very much, and I want you to know that you are not alone in navigating this very scary and painful situation. ❤️

    emma campbellemma campbellپیش 8 روز
  • I doubt you'll see this, but I think the reason I can relate so much to you is that you talk so openly about things that others are afraid to say online, it's refreshing to talk about how emotions (good or bad) are normal and not a taboo thing to feel. Have you looked into inattentive ADHD? I am not diagnosing you as I obviously do not know you, but a lot of the behaviors you show correlate with ADHD. I only am mentioning it as when I was diagnosed it helped me understand myself so much better and also helped me from being so hard on myself about things I cannot control. Anyway, I know it's been a sec since you've posted. I hope you're alright and taking care of yourself!

    josiejosieپیش 8 روز

    Mia BundgaardMia Bundgaardپیش 8 روز
  • i love it. i am 6 months late to this beautiful piece

    Simran ChandelSimran Chandelپیش 12 روز
  • This is so fcking beautiful! WOW

    Tanmita DasTanmita Dasپیش 12 روز
  • Video that you make like this actually remind me of Anthony Bourdain's. I hope you continue to create beautiful pieces of work like this.

    randomfire27randomfire27پیش 12 روز
  • Thank you, this was beautiful.

    Cris WogCris Wogپیش 12 روز
  • Thank you for this video - it fully made me cry. You're such a good person and i really hope that you know how much joy you give other people. Not cuz of the way you edit or whatever, just simply because you have this aura that just makes people feel comfortable and good. Thank you for making this world a bit better.

    Etta MagillEtta Magillپیش 13 روز
  • If you ever write a book, I'll read it

    SehrishSehrishپیش 15 روز
  • Beautiful, as always

    faginnyc / jasonfaginnyc / jasonپیش 16 روز
  • This shit hit me in the feels

    Flickerwiz zFlickerwiz zپیش 16 روز
  • Bruh why you make me cry now

    Zacharie BourgeoisZacharie Bourgeoisپیش 19 روز
  • i come back to this video everytime im sad about the pandemic and it always makes me feel better and like im not so alone :)

    Olivia MayeOlivia Mayeپیش 19 روز
  • i loved this content, a work of art

    Katie CourtKatie Courtپیش 19 روز
  • 6.4K dislikes? Why? I super love this video

    April CalimpusanApril Calimpusanپیش 20 روز
  • The piece where you talked about how you socialize with people you care about in your head and take months to text back really stuck out to me- I related to this whole video a lot.

    ThatJarebearGuyThatJarebearGuyپیش 21 روز
  • not me crying to this at 2 a.m

    Alexel TubellezaAlexel Tubellezaپیش 22 روز
  • This was beautiful. your a creative film maker and I love watching your videos. I know you get a lot of hate for no reason and it doesn’t make sense. You deserve better and I can’t wait for your next vid.

    H3n _H3n _پیش 22 روز
  • You made me feel things...i cried...Thank you! You're amazing

    Iringó GemzaIringó Gemzaپیش 22 روز
  • I absolutely love this! I only wish I'd found your videos sooner. Maybe I'd have felt a little more at peace with how everything was last year. I know it's not quite over just yet, but I wonder how different it would have been back then. I also am very goal or future oriented, so it was really tough not feeling like I had much to look forward to. I've since made some better choices and decisions and I'm using last year (whatever that whole mess was?) to propel myself forward and be the best version of myself that I can be. Maybe that's just the outcome of basically a year in quarantine, but I'm hoping it takes me to better places either way. I hope this year has been kind to you as well, Ashley. I've definitely been binging your videos recently as I job search and look towards newer and better things :)

    Endlee GamesEndlee Gamesپیش 23 روز
  • Cute & heart felt 🥰 thank you for this

    A. XavierA. Xavierپیش 23 روز
  • I miss you Ashley

    Amanda SchulerAmanda Schulerپیش 23 روز
  • This video is so lovely

    Amanda SchulerAmanda Schulerپیش 23 روز
  • If I could like it twice I would.

    Elodie FerryElodie Ferryپیش 24 روز
  • I love you ❤

    Elodie FerryElodie Ferryپیش 24 روز
  • This was just beautiful. She likes film making and it was really amazing. I do not see why people are giving her hate.

    20- B Saumya Kurup20- B Saumya Kurupپیش 25 روز
  • Just rewatched this video and I’m a crying, sobbing mess. First of all, this video is a piece of art. It’s so well made, so artsy and aesthetic, so meaningful, I fucking love it. Secondly, it’s so obvious that she’s laid out all her vulnerabilities and has shared them with us in hopes of finding some companionship in the loneliness that our brains create. We’re all fucked up in our ways but it’s times like these and moments like these and videos like this one that bring us all together. I hate the fact that some petty, hurtful assholes have such negative things to say to a genuinely good person who’s just trying to make art and share it with people who want to and know how to appreciate art. Ashley literally just wants to articulate how the pandemic treated her and she’s done an immaculate job. This isn’t romanticism. This is “I graduated from an expensive film school and I’m going to put my skills to use”. It’s as simple as that. I hope Ashley comes back to IRworld soon. I miss her and videos.

    SamSamپیش 25 روز
    • I so love this comment. ❤️

      Jamaica LariozaJamaica Lariozaپیش 19 روز
  • This was absolutely stunning. I'm so glad I watched this.

    Fairooj RushmilaFairooj Rushmilaپیش 25 روز
  • come back to youtube bestie

    Theis CaoTheis Caoپیش 25 روز
  • damn, some people really enjoy being angry for no reason. in no way, shape, or form was this romanticizing the coronavirus pandemic. if you think so, you sorely need to read a dictionary and stop dogging people for no reason. like Ashley’s lovely content or not, idc, but you can’t claim baseless shit like that bc you like to be angry. 😋 let people live!

    wax-faced girlwax-faced girlپیش 26 روز
  • Please take careee

    Dhiti SDhiti Sپیش 26 روز
  • Beautiful

    Dhiti SDhiti Sپیش 26 روز
  • Love this Video so much! I come back to this ohne from time to time bc its so raw and lovely ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    DandelionDandelionپیش 26 روز
  • This video made me feel so comforted when I was going through a really rough patch with my mental health. I had suicidal thoughts often and felt so alone. This video helped me so much. Please know that so many people love this video. I hope you're doing well Ashley.

    PeanutPeoplePeanutPeopleپیش 27 روز
  • we’re gonna be in this video in 5-10 years and be reminiscing the good ol corona days “remember the time we had a pandemic in 2020, woah crazy” 💀💀

    cloudy sunflowerscloudy sunflowersپیش 27 روز
  • This. This was the video that made me subscribe.

    willtwerkforpizzawilltwerkforpizzaپیش 27 روز
  • Beautiful and raw, thank you for sharing

    MsLynn27MsLynn27پیش 27 روز
  • This is art! I so appreciate your candidness, the care you put into your content, and the beautiful film techniques you employ that really set you apart from the average IRworldr. Despite its initial reception, this is personally one of my favorite videos you’ve ever shared with us.

    Amanda WrightAmanda Wrightپیش 28 روز
  • You know your late when there are no more toxic comments

    Ori WallachOri Wallachپیش 28 روز
  • Ummm genuine question... what's wrong about romanticizing the pandemic????? Just cuz we're in chaos are we not allowed to try see or create beauty in our world???????????????

    Nel LaNel Laپیش 28 روز
    • I guess you're right. It's a way to cope.

      EDITSEDITSپیش 27 روز
  • Thanks for making this, it’s beautiful and relatable. Thanks for making me feel normal (“I hope you only threw up a little bit” 😹)💗💗 ps: I’m sorry you probably won’t see this cause of the fuckers who comment shit

    Madeleine JurdMadeleine Jurdپیش 28 روز
  • A beautiful short film!! You are such a creative and inspiring creator. Wish you only the best in 2021

    Sunniva R. JacobsenSunniva R. Jacobsenپیش ماه
  • lemme pay you money for this video bc this hit me way too hard

    Starrynight56Starrynight56پیش ماه
  • This is art. This is AMAZING!

    bcbcپیش ماه
  • IRworld misses you :)

    RachelRachelپیش ماه
  • this was beautiful

    Sassy B'dassiSassy B'dassiپیش ماه
  • whenever i hear this song, it just makes me smile because it reminds me of your video

    Rukia KuckikiRukia Kuckikiپیش ماه
    • What is the song?

      meiimeiiپیش 3 روز
  • Gosh. That was so moving. Thank you for this.

    Ana FradeAna Fradeپیش ماه
  • this is so beautiful

    Jennifer PetersenJennifer Petersenپیش ماه
  • This is home

    Kaye A.Kaye A.پیش ماه
  • This video is a masterpiece

    gayathri sunil filmsgayathri sunil filmsپیش ماه
  • You're wasting your talents designing clothing. You are definitely a writer. Maybe not a screenwriter but some kind of writer. Novels, memoirs, Sex in the City 2. Paper column if papers weren't going under. Anyway. Keep writing. By your 30's it'll be interesting.

    Damon StoutDamon Stoutپیش ماه
  • I keep coming back

    sallysallyپیش ماه
  • Was going through my subs. Only saving the best ones,this was 1 of them that I kept subbed to!

    charlotte whitecharlotte whiteپیش ماه
  • I love you bro

    Jasper CaysJasper Caysپیش ماه
  • Second time watching this, love it.

    Unni TUnni Tپیش ماه
  • Hang in there, Things do get better.

    JosenyiJosenyiپیش ماه
  • Whatever🙄..I love her ,haters gonna hate😏.

    Mishang TVMishang TVپیش ماه
  • people really have a problem with everything, she is a film student, this is a short film, this is her talking about how 2020 has her feeling. how is she romanticising the pandemic, i don't see why everyone is attacking her

    siddhi wanikarsiddhi wanikarپیش ماه
  • I just want to give her a hug

    Blythe FlandersBlythe Flandersپیش ماه
  • Great video

    Orchid QueenOrchid Queenپیش ماه
  • You could be more polite

    daydreamerdaydreamerپیش ماه
  • "Now we still hate each other but we are fucking" Mood

    Ruby WolfstoneRuby Wolfstoneپیش ماه
  • Although it is not 2020 anymore I keep coming back to this video because I can not help but feel like I am wrapped in a blanket of warmth when I watch it.

    Arielmadison ArchzigArielmadison Archzigپیش ماه
  • This was beautiful. I cried.

    SandraSandraپیش ماه
  • Everyone is talking about how asteticly peasing her life is but underneith its so different. She isn't perfect, nobody is! I never knew that she feels like how most people do, expessially me, im only 13 but I get what this all means, Mental health is affecting us and its not fun. Its like your life is being taken away from you, and your friends and family. It's not nice to feel this way. Some people get depressed because they arnt socialising, because the miss their family. We all need to take a day or two to just make a day about us, pamper yourself, give yourself a treat, something that will make you forget about all the lonelyness that is trying to cut deep inside our head. Think about it, all those time's we spent admiring other people's "perfect" live's when we can be taking care of ourself and admiring ourself.

    Misbah McIver-KhanMisbah McIver-Khanپیش ماه
  • This was one of the most beautiful things I've watched in a while and Ashley seems such a kind and beautiful person. I feel like if I've known her irl we would have been great friends 💕

    Madhvi TripathiMadhvi Tripathiپیش ماه
  • i love your vids!!!

    Ang Pei ShanAng Pei Shanپیش ماه
  • I love you so much! ❤️

    Paunda xxxPaunda xxxپیش ماه
  • “Without a single living creature” Also Ashley: *literally has an entire garden’s worth of plants in her apartment*

    Soy SanSoy Sanپیش ماه
  • Love the footage of Charm City!

    lisa murraylisa murrayپیش ماه
  • Its ridiculous how many times I have watched this video and cried my heart out . I read some where that We cling to music ,to poems, to quotes, to writing ,to art because we desperately do not want to be alone, we want to know we aren't going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you're feeling. We want someone to explain the thing we can't. I cling to this video. Thanks for creating something so meaningful.

    Kavisha RatraKavisha Ratraپیش ماه
  • The ending was honestly very satisfying because I didn’t feel alone in not having a perfect ending... thanks

    Sylvia RadoulovSylvia Radoulovپیش ماه
  • You're so cool

    M BM Bپیش ماه
  • You know...i hope you know that you're not the only one who feels like this (even before the pandemic) and it's really okay to accept it. I just admire how you can put it into actual words. Most of us can't 😐 💜

    Vanessa AvilaVanessa Avilaپیش ماه
  • What a film masterpiece ! Better than a some Hollywood movie. Hope you are safe and will find peace in new apartment

    Dávid HorváthDávid Horváthپیش ماه
  • did enyone else cry?

    Viebe Van LangendonckViebe Van Langendonckپیش ماه
  • this was the best thing i've ever watched in so long

    Kuo Te YiKuo Te Yiپیش ماه
  • this was meant to be revisited months later (:

    Karlo Sta. CruzKarlo Sta. Cruzپیش ماه
  • New follower here, But this video and person gave me life. Its nice knowing I wasn't the only one alone in a NYC apartment for 7 months. But nothing like over coming some depression to remind you're capable of anything. If you can survive in NYC you can survive anywhere, If you survived in NYC during the pandemic you can live on Mars.

    Michael VignolesMichael Vignolesپیش ماه